Poem: My Mistakes


I stepped out of the car and turn to leave you
And just like every time before, I begin to forget all that I’ve ever known but you
I mistook the winter air for your hands cold and running over my body and your touch essentially for me to live
I looked up and mistook the night sky for your hair they way it covers over me
Mistook the shining stars for that twinkle that somehow you always have in your eye
I woke up and mistook the sunshine for your smile


Poem: The Music Never Stopped


The scary music never stopped.
It was always there, full volume,
telling me things I didn’t want to hear.
It would play so loud
I couldn’t sing my own song;
I couldn’t fall asleep at night
because the sound was always there.
When I met you the scary music didn’t stop,
it just added your name to the lyrics of the song
that scared me the most:
“everything you’re afraid to lose.”
Since the music started I had been looking for headphones,
something that will mute it.
When you put your arms around me,
the music stopped.
The music still plays in the background throughout the day,
but I turn down the volume
with the thought of your voice.

Survey: Cheating among GHS students

To supplement an article in our next issue, The Journal is conducting a survey about cheating by Guilderland students. Please fill out the survey below. All responses are anonymous. The staff of The Journal thank you for your participation.

Fight of the century a fight of integrity


Perhaps the biggest sporting matchup up of the year, tonight Floyd Mayweather and Manny Pacquiao will face each other in the arena at the MGM Grand Garden Arena in Las Vegas. Mayweather is undefeated(47-0) and World Boxing Association and World Boxing Council champion while Pacquiao is a World Boxing Organization champion and has won many tough battles in the past.

Mayweather is 38 years old and is known for his brash and self-promoting personality. He flaunts his money and has gotten in trouble with the law in the past including jail time for a series of domestic violence issues. On the other hand, 36 year old Filipino boxer Manny Pacquiao is known for his humble demeanour and his strong faith in God. Pacquiao also represents the hope of the impoverished nation of Philippines, where all the Filipinos will be cheering on their hero tonight.

Mayweather claims to be ready for perhaps the biggest fight of his career. “My thing is to focus on what we’ve got to do tomorrow. I’ve dedicated myself to the sport of boxing for more than 20 years, and I’m ready.” Mayweather has shown how much he wants to win this fight as he has been heard saying “I never wanted to win a fight so bad in my life.” Despite Mayweather being the favorite, Pacquiao is not worried, stating “No one thought I could beat Oscar, and I was the underdog then. Maybe it’s good for me.” Siding with Pacquiao, Guilderland sophomore RJ Porter replied “I think Pacquiao because he is dedicated and works hard,” when asked who he thought would come out on top.

A total of 400 million dollars is estimated to be generated from this fight, with Mayweather estimated to earn $180 million and Pacquiao $100 million. Unfortunately, the fight is pay by view, which means that each person has to pay to watch it on their television, whether they have cable or not. The cost to get it on your television is $99.99, a new record for the most expensive pay by view price. However, if you don’t want to spend that much cash, go get together with a bunch of friends and have a boxing party, paying significantly less. Fight starts at 11:00 pm EST.

Letter from the editor

As democracy demands the participation of citizens, social change demands the action of the people. Through conversation and discussion, citizens are able to shift the tide of justice towards a society based on our ideals. This is the idea behind this edition of Journal Magazine, in which we aim to lift the shroud of silence on these issues that matter. Hopefully, these pieces will inspire all of us to discuss the social justice issues that matter to us. The time for sitting down and shutting up is over – as a member of our society and a person of the world, your voice must be heard.

-Leonard Bopp

Editor-in-Chief, The Journal

Issues that Matter: Feminism


Feminism is defined as the advocacy of women’s rights on the grounds of political, social, and economic equality to men. Isn’t that absolutely ridiculous? How dare women speak up after being oppressed for centuries? Feminism is obviously one big joke that no one should take seriously.

I definitely don’t need feminism because I am perfectly fine with being pulled out of class to change so that I don’t distract the boys. I’m content with pretending to be on the phone when I walk down the street alone at night. I don’t even mind making 25 cents less than my male counterparts every hour. I think it’s amazing that throwing “like a girl” has become an offensive insult. I’m fine with being told to look a certain way in order to impress men. I don’t need feminism because I’m happy with my abilities and skills being doubted.

It’s evident that gender inequality is a thing of the past, just like racism, police brutality, and world hunger.

However, on a serious note, no matter what gender, religion, or race one is, shouldn’t we all be equal in the light of politics, economics, social relations, and life?

A license to discriminate


The Indiana Religious Freedom Act: a license to discriminate. Religious freedom doesn’t justify refusal to serve people of different sexual orientations. My doctor can refuse treatment, I can only eat in select restaurants, all because bigoted homophobes feel that they can falsely express their religion to feed their ignorance. I may not be able to “lay with another man,” but they sure can’t lay down more laws to discriminate against my right to practice any sexuality I desire.

When the sky brightens: the tragedy of drone strikes


“Now I prefer cloudy days when the drones don’t fly. When the sky brightens and becomes blue, the drones return and so does the fear.”

If Americans won’t listen to Zubair Rehman, a Pakistani boy who traveled thousands of miles to speak in front of a virtually empty Congress, maybe they’ll listen to the cries of over two thousand families who have lost innocent loved ones to the US-led drone attacks against al-Qaeda.  Maybe they’ll listen to the children who can’t play outside in fear of a sudden attack, in fear of bombs dropping on the very fields they play on. Or maybe it’ll take the confirmed deaths of two hostages, American development expert Warren Weinstein and Italian aid worker Giovanni Lo Porto, to finally turn America against the appalling drone strikes that are turning Pakistan’s landscape into a spotted war zone.

An end to torture


Just last year, the CIA “torture report” was released by the Senate. The 6,700 page executive summary exposed numerous human rights violations and depicted the horrifying tales of the victims who lived through this brutality. Shockingly, the United States justice department has not given the report any significant thought.

From 2002 to 2008, the U.S has been the cause of the disappearance of more than 100 men. The government used clinical words such as “enhanced interrogations” and “stress positions” in order to hide and justify the obscure truth.

The report includes horrifying accounts of forced rectal feeding to humiliate and extort force over men and shackling men in diapers into positions where they were deprived of sleep. One especially terrible “technique” revealed include stripping men, wrapping their naked bodies in mylar, and dragging them up and down the halls slapping and punching their bodies.

Amnesty International is a human rights movement that has recently started a grassroots movement in hopes of getting the Justice Department to investigate and hold those responsible of abuses accountable. This movement involves getting American civilians to send one page of the report at a time to the U.S Justice Department whether it be through fax, email, mail, or a social media platform.

The things that these people have gone through are absolutely disgusting and inhumane. Personally, I come from a country where corruption rules the political and military world. Numerous accounts of police brutality, torture, rape, and various other human rights violations are common news headlines there daily. I never thought these things would follow me to America, but they have, and as each day goes on things get worse and worse. The power of the people is one the strongest forces in the world. From moment to movement, I strongly believe that solidarity is the only way to achieve justice for those wronged by the CIA.

Issues that matter: emotional abuse


I did not leave you. I climbed up through your throat and out of your mouth for your stomach acids were burning me alive. To say I left would be to imply it was by choice, but instead it was a push with two strong arms while your lips screamed “Come back” how can I survive while I am under attack? I couldn’t. So I slid through the cracks of the cage where you locked but set aflame leaving me to smolder into ash.

Please, by all means, crucify the slave for running away, nail her to the crosswalk and tell her you appreciate her but at very least comprehend the precise amount of fucked up that is. Stop pretending what you did was okay.

I had to start showing you the blistering bruises and battered blue marks that were lining my arms like tattoos because you acted as if I were made of a strong steel that you could beat, and burden, at your blackened heart’s every whim.

You would wake up and forget I was sickened with your poison.

Before I knew I was worthy and valuable, I would keep my wounds on my inner thighs, masking the slashes on my soul and the marks on my mind- I was a canvas of blood and bone open for interpretation of you and only you
I wrote poetry of apologies and songs of sorrys for mistakes that were human and righteous

I played games of shame and ate food of blame I was so sorry for every move I would ever make
And now you stand here, pretending you are Jesus Christ; forgiving me for all my sins, but dear, I did not leave you.
I clambered out of the hell you deviously called heaven

I erased the words of the letters I wrote to you apologizing for making you cry

A man with two arms versus woman with half a heart is hardly a battle. One will love and one will die so my love,

I did not leave you.

I made a run for it.